This is my first time making a blog. I don't know what to put down so I will just put what comes to my mind. As I proceed to put my thoughts in My Own Cyberspace World, I wonder who will be reading it. Although they are my private thoughts as I sit in a desolate place in the real world, my thoughts become public in this new venture.
I'm a career soldier and as I think back of the years I've been in, I do so with good memories. I've made mistakes, things that I wish I shouldn't have said and done, but I've learned from them one way or another.
I'm an avid writer and sometimes I even surprise myself of the things I've written for school assignments as well as my letters to my loved ones. I don't know where I got this gift but it's been something that has helped throughout the years. I reckon it's mainly because I'm quiet in the "real world" and I hardly state my opinions openly and so it's been a venue for me to put it down on paper.
I'm a full time learner, mainly of the arts, music, athletics, technology, philosophy, etc. I enjoy traveling to other countries seeing a glimps of how other cultures live. I'm from the Philippines (Pampanga and Manila) and still speak the dialects of my homeland. I moved to the United States at a young age but I've kept myself connected with my culture. I've traveled the Carribean, part of the US, and I've lived in Germany where I've been able to visit several other countries. A favorite is Spain where the people are always friendly, the food is always good and affordable, and the weather is always nice and sunny.
I'm a wife and a mother, and I didn't know how it would feel to be away from my child the way my mother was from me when I was a child but now I have a better understanding. As she learns new words, new skills, new expressions, and keeps growing, I watch in pictures and home videos with delight only to wish that I could be there to do it physically. I yearn for the time I will spend with my family while I focus on my mission.
Right now, however, I sit here in front of a computer, making plans for the future but I'm confined in a small forward operating base because I'm deployed. I've been writing all the things I want to do once I leave, all the things I want to change, all the goals I want to accomplish. Yet, it feels like I'm at a halt. I cannot make any of these changes. So, I sit, and I type, and I learn that I can only control what is in front of me because what's behind is the past and what's ahead is still unreachable.
My Own Cyberspace World will help me in expressing my thoughts, my views and my sorrow as I try to survive yet another year away from home. I don't know who will come along for the journey but it will be new, different and revealing.
